my MISSED list
Excuse me. Where are my endorphins?
Because lately..
I feel like hell.
I miss lifes simple pleasures. I miss laughing until tears appear. I miss bonding with my family. I miss my brother. Miss NOT being able to rummage through his stuff owing to the fact that he’ll yell at me when he finds out. I miss my sister. I miss her lovelife optimism. I miss my bestfriend. Miss our crazy chatter bordering on insanity. I miss friends who listen. I miss friends who have the time to spare. And I miss friends who actually care. I miss being able to say Im fine sincerely when someone asks how Im doing. I miss NOT feeling bad about life. I miss NOT saying "Some people have all the luck". I miss my overachiever self. I miss being busy. I also miss hearing the clock lullabying me to sleep rather than cry myself to sleep. I miss my happy dreams compared to these ones Ive been having lately. I miss belonging to someone. I miss NOT feeling alienated when someone mentions school. I miss NOT being able to relate to sad hopeless songs and TV shows. I miss NOT watching funny sitcoms to cheer me up but rather because they’re funny. I miss NOT feeling frustrated and angry at everything. And at someone. I miss NOT going paranoid over someone. I miss NOT feeling so forlorn. I miss being able to sleep right away rather than having a million thoughts debate first in my mind. I miss feeling happy and excited upon going to work. I miss incentives and kudos. I miss not having to avoid some people. I
miss receiving personal text from my friends just to say ‘Hi’ rather
than receiving these forwarded msgs sent by my unlitxt friends — which
just fill up my phone inbox. I miss NOT feeling imperfect. I miss feeling blessed. I miss believing in compliments.I miss writing happy blogs. I super miss the inspiration. I miss my old life.
E R G O . . .
I miss NOT feeling something is amiss.
