LOVE CULT

Left hanging without an explanation
more insulting than hurting
or so i say
Lost you because of my stupid pride
avoided you for no valid reason
and worse of all
kept you from knowing
now im mad at myself
most especially
seeing you with another girl
this is kinda crazy!

cant help but ask
out of all the people in the world
why did i meet you?
a fortunate accident
thats what I used to say
now a different story
a million light years
away
different
now have to believe
and cross my fingers
that theres someone
better
out there for me
hopelessly hope

walking out of the picture now
although pardon me
if i cant tell myself
to stop loving you
completely
dont worry though
one day
i’ll move on
when my heart has finally
moved on
in the true sense of the word
as of the moment though
i’ll crawl to the darkest corner
of the room
reflect on how
too damned tired
i really am
of feeling hurt
find my own solace
and want so badly
to be able to
distance myself
so to say
want to cry it out
just to subside the feeling
but somehow
the tears never come
anymore
hey! what did you to me?!

argh! i dont want to be angry
at you
i want to just
understand
it all
why you had to do
what you had to do
dont want to base everything
on you
hmm..
c’mon brain!
make it all sink in:
the guy i love
loves another
now what could be more painful than that?
and funny
i still find it in me
to smile
its a silly thing
when one falls in love
its a silly thing.