LOVE CULT

Unjust. How many times have I used that word. Scolded myself with it. Day in and day out. But somehow I never learn. The way I always revert to my old ways. I am my own heaven and hell, I say. And it overwhelms me at times, the pain I mean. It catches me when Im least expecting it. The same way you turn on the shower expecting the cold water to wash over after a hot summer day, only to find out that somebody had turned on the heater and now you realize that the water is slowly scalding your skin. An understatement ofcourse, the comparison I made. Uncomparable to the real thing. Slapped twice, stabbed thrice. Execrable. Detestable. Extremely bad. And I thought I was nobodys fool. Laughed so hard at the thought. Simply believed it was not subject to the laws of space and time. Well, guess whos laughing now. Indisputable. Incontrovertible. Unquestionable. Unchallenged. How your bad for me. I knew that fact. That mathematical fact. Tried to bear that in mind. Dwelled upon the idea unceasingly. Perpetually even. Made it a mental stain. Guess logic lost. Stupid girl! No excuses and alibis this time. No make believe tourniquets. Cant simply shrug this one off. What next Love?! What next?! Oh no..talking to myself again. Tsk tsk tsk. Definitely a bad sign.

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