It All Makes Perfect Sense, Or So I Say…
Hadn’t quite expected things to turn out the way it turned out. Im happy and I guess he also is. Funny how life seems to unravel such amazing things in such out-of-the-blue way. He doesn’t have to be the guy in the music video…he simply has to be someone who thinks Im worth all the trouble. Don’t know why Im even scribbling this down, still can’t figure out how things arrived at this point. And am I even making sense? I know I don’t, but why? does everything have to make sense?! There are more things in life than having to understand each little detail, I do know that I want my cake and want to eat it too. And as I go on, the more confusing things are. But I like it this way, I know I told you otherwise but sometimes I lie too you know. Caught myself smiling again, thinking of that no one in particular. But does he know that he IS no one in particular?! Seriously doubt that. Seriously doubt that he has any inkling…any iota of awareness of what I seem to be feeling. Yup, it only seems as though this is what I am feeling. Not even sure myself. Not sure of a lot of things these days. Must be from all of the hustle and bustle of life…but hasn’t life always been hustling and bustling?! Why now…when everything…almost made sense. I have to stop reading these stupid novels…makes me think too much.
